Season sales were on..
Decoration were up...
Lighting were up everywhere..
Christmas tree, angels, santa can be seen everywhere..
When u least notice..
Christmas is just 1 month away..
While everyone is preparing for this wonderful festive season..
I'm rotting at my workplace..
Bothering about lots of stuff...
I guess I manage to cool down a little after friday incident...
N I hope everything can be solve this coming friday..
I guess before i ask people to put themselves into my shoes..
I should put mine into theirs..
If i were year 1.. Nvm.. Hope things can get better ba...

1 more week to Standard Charactered Marathon..
Didn't really train lots..
Hope I'm able to survive through..
Wish me luck..

I nv wanna avoid anything..
I know tat avoiding can't solve anything..
N i nv once blame anyone for this thing to happen...
If this thing happen to u...
Will u be able to calm down?
Why u guys onli know how to push the blame to me?
Have u guys put yourself into my shoe N THINK?
What u wanna me to do?
Can anyone just tell me?
I try to distant away from the girls..
N u guys say i'm avoiding..
and when i'm to close to them..
U say i form groups..
What u guys really want?
Can anyone give me a solution..
Stop toturing me this way..
Or u guys really wanna force me to just end my life..
With no friend.. With NOTHING..
Den will u guys be happy rite?
7 years of friends...
Or those that once say u were my friends..
What the hell is tat?

I dun understand why..
Why watever thing i do is always wrong..
I even lost the freedom to have close frenz..
U guys just wanna clarify things..
But have u all ever think of my feelings?
How do I feel??
Izzit going out with my junior close fren wrong?
They are there when i need them most..
Of course, i treat them as my bao bei frenz..
N when they are in trouble, i hope to be there for them too..
You guys give me the feeling that a comm member can't be too close to juniors who wanna be in the next comm..
What's this???
I dun understand..
N why me??
U guys wanna give me any solutions?
Or u just want me to leave OB?
N i have to clarify..
When the junoirs go for interview..
I DIDN'T EVEN GO FOR THE INTERVIEW..
N I DID NOT HELP ANYONE OF THEM AT ALL!!!!
WHY BOTHER PUSH PEOPLE DUN EVEN KNOW HOW TO WORK..
OB NEED PEOPLE THAT KNOW HOW TO DO THINGS, NOT PEOPLE THAT GO IN BY RELATIONSHIP!!!!
Before u guys start saying me..
Can u guys look at yourself..
Are u guys forming your own group..
Think!
I really dunno what should i do anymore...

It's Monday again~~
Yawnz..
Had a great weekend..
Went Skating at ECP.
First time.. Cool~~
Still learning..
Went for work on Sunday.. Busy day i guess~
Back to school..
Working as NAPFA tester after school from Mon to Thurs.
Easy job.. =)
N FRIDAY IS MY NAPFA..
ARGH!!!!
Hope i pass..
La la la..

Christmas is one month away..
Any Christmas date? Haha..

Why am I always getting myself into this kind of stuff?
Even I stay low profile..
I'm somehow caught in a situation whereby people still dislike me..
I dun understand why..
Am I so anoying that people die die oso must hate me?
If yes, I got nothing to say..
I'm not trying to ask people to like me or even my character..
But before u hate me.. Can u just let me know the reason?
It's no right to say bad about someone behind people's back..
If u dun like me or think that I got a problem..
For god sake.. Can u tell me straight in my face..
Why keep quiet and say nothing is wrong..
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

BORING!!!
Christina is feeling bored~~~
Everyone is busy with their own stuff...
N they are ignoring me...
Sobz...
Yawnz...
Two assignment to be handed up next week..
My group haven't even start..
haiz..
Dun care..
I just wanna hang out, Run and work...
Anyone wanna date me out??
Yawnz...

Boring!!!!
Yawnz~~~
La la la~~~~~
Haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Kkz.. I have just lost a fren.. =(
You could have been a good working fren to be with..
But you choose to say the wrong words at the wrong time..
That's is not a joke..
It's not funny..
Who do you I am?
If u think I am what you think..
YOU ARE WRONG!!
I feel disturbed..
Really disturbed...
Please stay away from me for the time being~~


I'm Christina Lian!!
I'm not as weak as u think..
So what I'm single??
I dun need a boyfriend to survive!!!!!!
I am independent on myself even if i got no frenz..

ARGH!!!!!!!!!

It's all wrong..
Very wrong..
I must not fall into it..
Not even a single step...
I'm just thinking too much..
I should occupy myself with more stuff..
I wanna run!!!!

Emo~ Emo~ Emo~
In a state of EMO...


From Daring to be yourself again...


Do you agree?




I ought to be more independent..
as I have been relying on you too much..
The moment u aren't there or ignoring me..
I'm lost..
I'm just gonna keep this secret forever...

Tips on Happiness
(Must finish reading this post!)

1) Take Care of your Health
Eating well and getting plenty of exercise will raise your spirits. Lack of nutrients will get you down so don't skip meals or make do with junk food. Physical exercise is known to stimulate endorphins that lift depression and anxiety. -- "Anyone wanna run with me??? I seriously need some running"

2) Smile!
Smiling triggers happy feeling in the brain and reduce stress. Even if you dun feel happy or confident just behave as though you do and soon u will. Find the joy in your life and you'll be more attractive and nicer to be around, people will be nice to you too - and you'll smile some more! Joy is infectious but so is misery; therefore dun have anything whatever to do with people who dampen your spirits, invalidate your achievements or tell you wat to think -- My new resolution: TO SMILE MORE!! EVERYBODY PLEASE SMILE!! =)

3) Assert your rights
Think of things which you have a right to, e.g. ' I have a right to an evening out with my frens from time to time.' Think of rights that every human being should have, such as ' I have the rite not to be bullied.' Now, protect your rights with your life, and watch your integrity and self-esteem grow. -- No wonder i'm getting fatter.. I always believe I have the right to dote myself by eating good food after working so hard.. Haha.. =P

4)Nuture your relationships
Take time and trouble over your frens and partner. Talk and laugh with them and - especially - listen and understand their points of view. Dun make being right more important than a friendship. People with a few close frens are more likely to be happy than those wit many mere acquaintances. -- SO people look out.. I'm gonna trouble you guys.. Haha.. Catch up soon!!!

5)Give yourself some time.
For most of us, life is fast paced. Be sure to put aside a little time every day for yourself - relax with a book, in the bath or sitting in the garden with the sun on your face. Think of some things that make you happy - go to bed early enough that you get enough sleep to feel your best the next day.. -- Come on.. Dun be selfish.. Give yourself some time... =)

6)Take Control
Instead of feeling overwhelmed by a task, break it down into smaller segments that you know you can do and start on the first one. If you have lots of incomplete jobs, list them in order of priority and tackle the most important job first. This way you have a sense of achievement at each step - and you'll soon find yourself getting a whole lot more accomplished. Production equals morale.

7)Live for the moment
Joy is oftena bout living in the moment, being absorbed in what you're doing, not broading on the past or guessing your future. Decide what YOU really want and then go for it. This may mean a job, a friendship or a hobby. It can take courage but it's worth the risk. Then give yourself wholeheartedly to the present moment..

8) You deserve it
Self esteem comes from demonstrated competence. Everyone has skills but not everyone uses the,. So use your skills - find out what you're good at and do it. Tell yourself that you deserve all the praise that comes your way and wallow in it!

** Those in blue is I add on de.. Haha.. Hope you guys realise sth after reading..
The above is written by Peter Shepherd - Daring to be yourself..

Boring!!!
14th comm decide to have comm outing to Zouk..
N i decide to give it a miss...
Cos next day gonna work and i guess i'll be bored there beside drinking..
Trying to find someone to acc me have dinner..
But everyone so busy!!!
Ringo going thailand...
Jason at Australia..
Zhe Ying in office doing his work..
Veronica studying for her exams...
My 3 ah gers staying in school...
Argh..
In the end.. I have to trouble Joe again..
Haha.. Thanks buddy!! You're the best le.. Haha.. Muackz..

Got myself a book "Daring to be yourself" by Peter Shepherd...
Read the first few pages and it was good till so far...
N i came across this sentence which i find it meaningful and wish to share...

If you dun know and accept yourself as you are, you can't love yourself.
And if you dun love yourself, it's very hard to love anybody else as they are, with all their inevitable quirks.
If you dun love yourself, it's hard to forgive yourself for your mistakes.
And if you dun love other people, it's hard to forgive them when they go astray.

I will continue to read and will share if i find any interesting quotes..
By then.. Take care.. =)

Argh!! I'm once again attacked by flu and fever monsters..
They have joined hands and defeat me... Sobz =(
N once again.. I feel so sleepy throughout the whole day..
Yawnz... I just can't wait to start running again....

Dunno which stupid monster attacked my beloved grandma..
She had lung infection and have to stayed in the hospital for one night..
I'm so worry that i dun wish to go school and go down to hospital to visit her..
But lucky, the doctor say she is fine and can be discharged...
Whew.. Thank god...
Rush home right after my make up lesson to visit her..
Well.. She is okie just that she feel a bit breathless..
Haiz.. Hope she get well soon..
Grandma! I love you.. Muackz..

Oh ya.. Thought that I can escape the NAPFA test..
In the end.. I still have to go..
ARGH.. I must start training for my standing broad jump..
That is my killer station sia..
Haiz...

I was being attacked by flu and Zzzz Monsters...
Sobz..
Didn't went for my run due to my flu...
I'm so sad... Haiz... I cannot slack.. Must train!

Some Random thoughts...

Do you really have to be with the person you love when he or she show no interest about u? I doubt so.. When you love someone, you dun have to be with that person.. As long as you know he or she is happy, aren't it the most important thing? Why do people start to move away when they are being rejected? If it is this way, you wun even stand a chance and others may think that you are petty. If you really love that person, you should set he or she free to let them decide what they really want in life.. Be there and support the one you love when he or she need u most.. Cannot be couple? Why not be Good Fren? You will never know what happen in the future..

Next.. Why a guy and a girl can never be good frenz? Why must there some chemistry or some reason for two different gender to be good frens? Let me ask you guys.. What is the first reaction when you see your good fren with someone of the opposite gender behaving quite close but not intimate? You will think that they may be an item, aren't you? Or after sometime, it will be sure that one party will like the other party... Izzit true? Erm.. I disagree somehow.. I believe a guy and a girl can be good fren as long as both of them know what's their stand.. If they stand firm, they can be the best frenz forever.. I dunno.. Any comment???

Why do people always start realising how precious something is when you are at the edge of losing it or had already lose it. People do take surrounding people and things for granted and they will start crying over it when they actually lose it.. By the time u start regretting, aren't it too late?? Since it will be this way, why people dun treasure things at the first place? There is always this philosophy saying that people will onli treasure things that they work really hard for. Izzit true?? Den how about Relationship? You may work very hard for that one person but in the end, u actually realise that he or she is not one.. What would you do??

Den what about life? Would you rather make full use of your life or would you waste your time away by doing nothing.. Some people took youth and time for granted.. They think that they have all the time in the world and unlimited youth.. But izzit really true? Let put an example: Would you climb a mountain or do trekking when you are in your 60s? I doubt so unless u are very healthy... I believe that youth and time is limited.. Yet, some young people would rather rot at home or accomplish nothing den to go out explore and experience.. What a waste..

Kkz.. Lots of ramdom thoughts.. Shall go zzzz le.. Tml overnight training.. I hope i wun fall and hurt myself again.. haiz...