Been few days since i last blog.. Last week due to exam week, it was horrible. I had a very bad week. Haiz.. Finish my exam on friday.. Was trouble over some stuff and maybe cause of nv see him. Feeling very moody even it was after exam. Kkz.. Enough of my unhappy stuff..

Start my attachment this week at J. Tan & Co. I'm currently working as a auditor. This few days had been doing some financial report for two registered companines. Doing all those long report with balance sheet and income statement all these... Haven't really do the actual audit stuff which include stocktake, checking of invoices and stuff like tat.. Now doing more to secretarial job dealing with small companies. Hoping to start the real audit job soon. Haiz.. Hope to learn even more things. Time passes by slowly whenever there is nth on hand. I want more work so time can passes by faster.. haha.. Crazy huh? haha.. This company was okie just that a bit messy cos full of other companies documents and my workplace is damn cold~~~ However, the work given was okie with nice people around especially Jensen, Noel and Jeremy who are on attachment with me. At least there are people that acc and talk with me during work.. hehe.. Only thing i dun like is that i have to wear formal everyday except Friday.. So troublesome.. Somemore the heels cause so much pain to me.. Haiz.. Haha.. But no choice.. Hehe.. Still trying to get use to waking up early and snatch for seats on the bus.. haha.. Everyday praying hard that there is no traffic jam so that i wun be late for work.. 6 more weeks of attachment to go.. Must jia you.. Hehe..

Yesterday went shopping with jie.. Sorry jie.. Wasn't in the mood to shop. Cos maybe due to my heels and a bit tired for waking up so early and work for the whole day.. Some other day we go out again k? Sorry.. Love u jie.. U the best!

Yeah. Tml friday.. Casual wear for work! No Heels!. Hehe.. Gonna meet dear dear for dinner tml.. Yuppie.. Go Makan Sultra to ear yummy food. Haha.. Gonna get fat soon.. Oh no! Haha.. =P

Start my attachment le..
Wear formal shirt and heel everyday..
Troublesome and PAIN!!
First day of work was fine..
A bit nervous though.
Time passes by damn slow when i'm at work..
Haiz..
Lucky got three guys acc me through this 7 weeks of attachment..
haha.. Two is from NP accounting year 3, while the other one is from my FFA class.
Had fun and learn lots of things from them..
Tired after seating at my desk for so long...
As for the work down there..
Dunno what the hell i'm doing..
Doing audit report and stuff like tat..
Worst of all.. I dunno what the seniors instructions..
His instructions so unclear..
Haiz.. Gonna work harder..
I wanna learn more things!!!

One week had pass..
I onli manage to have a look at him for less than 3hrs..
Whenever on the phone..
So much wanted to tell him how much I miss him..
How much i wanted to see him..
But..
Forget about it..
No point telling him tat...
Didn't wanna him to worry..
His exams coming soon..
Just wanna him to concentrate on his studies..
In order not to think of him..
I off my handphone and went out alone..
I must have taken the wrong medicine..
N become Crazy...
One more week before I can see him..
I really sound crazy rite?
Yah.. I'm crazy le..

I Miss you..
There is so much thing I wanna tell..
But i dunno what's wrong with myself either..
Suddenly I feel so tired...
I went out alone again..
I off my handphone again..
Sorry to have make u worry again..
I hope everything gonna be fine for me after awhile..
Just noe that I love You..
That is all that matters..
I'm sorry..

Kkz.. Been totally crazy for the past one week..
Stress as the exam dates are near..
Tons of school work to revise on..
The drilling and banging from the construction of the covered walkway..
All these caused me to become moody and crazy..
Went town for to shop.. ALONE..
Off my handphone so that no one could disturb me..
Blast my MP3 player so i can hear nth except the music..
Wanting to buy some stuff but found nth..
Argh.. Worst of all.. I became so crazy that i went to CUT MY HAIR..
When i was out of the salon.. I REGRET!!
My hair in the big big mess..
The aunty cut until so short la!!
Was so angry and pissed off..
N i cried.. (Silly huh.. Serve me right)
Sms Rebecca Jie right away..
Ask her to acc me go her aunty place to rebond hair..
I simply love her.. hehe..
Feel so bad, she have to wait for me for few hours..
N she fall sick.. Sobz... =(
But after I rebond, at least My mood is lighten..
I can't imagine going out with my previous hair style.
At least now not so messy..
Two more papers to go..
I wanna go out...
Jia You ba.. =)

Finally saw dear dear.. Went to watch Click and My super Ex-girlfriend. Both shows were nice. However I found "Click" quite meaningful.. At least to me..

"Click" was about this guy owning a Universal Remote Control and how is life having it. He regret in the end and he just wanna lead a normal life with his family. The message from the show that came across me is that family and friends are more important than anything else. Wanting his family to live in luxury, the actor actually work non-stop. As time goes by, due to the heavy work load, he start to neglect his family. He distance alway from his family, his wife who he love most. It is clear to him that he just wanna his family to live comfortably. But is that what his family want from him? Nope.. His family just wanna him to spend time with them without work interfering. That is all they could happily ask for.

This story is similar to some of us, right? We work non stop in order to allow us live comfortably. Just because of money, we can leave everything aside.. Including our family and friends. We doesn't wanna spend time with our family and friends. All of us do... But without money. What can we do? How are we gonna survive? Life is CONFUSING huh? Haiz..

But whatever it is.. Do treasure what u have NOW.. DUn take things for granted. Spend as much time with ur family and frenz.. Do whatever u want Now. Dun wait or else u gonna regret..

Maybe due to pre exam stress, I'm getting more and more crazy.. Things that shouldn't be in my mind start rushing in. Oh gosh.. I hate this feeling.. I dunno what's wrong with me.. Haiz...

I miss dear dear lotz.. Though i'm with him not long ago.. But i'm just miss him so much.. I wun be able to see for next few days. Time gonna be slow and unbearable for me.. Haiz.. I wonder if he know this.. Does he feel the same? I dunno..

Feeling moody for the past days...
Haiz..
Been wanting to find someone to acc me go out..
But found no one...
Everyone is just so busy with their work..
What if I suddenly disappear..
Will anyone ever notice it?
I think nope..
kkz.. I'm crazy..
Who really cares for me?

Kkz.. Gonna start working soon.. Hehe... Eve of National Day.. Hope not too many people..

Before I log off... Another secret of being a happy person from the book for u guys to read if i got no time to blog..

The book wrote: We assume that happy people are born that way. But both kinds of people do things that create and reinforce their moods. Happy people let themselves happy. Unhappy people continue doing things that upset them. Everything u do, u have to define its purpose and then create a strategy to accomplish that purpose. Ironically, children are better at this than adults. Small children know when being cranky will get them an ice cream cone. And they know when being too noisy will get them a cross reaction from their parents. Children understand that there are rules and predictable patterns to life and they use a strategy to help them get what they want.

Living a happy life as an adult is like trying to get that ice cream cone as a child. YOu need to knowwhat you want and use a strategy to get it. Think about what makes you hapy, what makes u sad, and use this to help u get what you want.

Happy people do not experince one success after another and unhappy people, one failure after another. Instead, surveys shouw that happy and unhappy people tend to have had way similar life experiences. The difference is that e average unhappy person spends more than twice as much time thinking about unpleasant events in their lives, while happy people tend to seek and rely upon information that brightens their personal outlook..


Haha.. So how izzit? So.. Dun keep thinking over unhappy things.. Look ahead yah.. Stay Happy forever.. =)

Was reading a book that i borrowed from dear dear.. Was reading one of the chapter which i found it quite interesting.

The title was: " Your Life has purpose and meaning"

The book wrote: You are not here just to fill space or to be a background character in someone else's movie. Consider this: Nothing would be the same if you did not exist. Every place you have ever been and everyone you have ever spoken to would be different without you. We are all connected and we are all affected by the decision and even the existence of those around us.

So... Dun ever think that you are not important.. You can be important to someone else.. Someone tat actually care and love you..

Hehe.. Shall blog about if i find sth nice from the book..

First Sem of Year 2 is coming to an end... Study Break and after tat Exam Week. Everyone should be mugging right now.. Me? Haha.. Went for OB training as usual yesterday.. Running round campus and doing some physical conditioning. Cos last week didn't go for training. So after those hard training.. Whole body aching right now.. Haha.

Didn't manage to rest enough cos today got WORK.. Lunch was okie.. Quite boring. However.. DINNER was CRAZY.. I was the host for dinner.. Running round and round again.. Arranging tables for reservation and walk in customers.. TIRED!!! Just dun like being host.. Cos nobody how perfect i actually do.. That Supervisor sure got things to say.. haiz... Poor Me.. WHy can't they understand we actually put in our 100% effort and hard work...

Two week before examz.. Counting Down.. Must start Mugging liao..

Oh ya.. National Day coming... Happy Birthday, Singapore! Haha.. Working tat day.. Sianz..