"i bet you cant do well in everything in your life. you will fail everything eventually. by the way, the way you treat people is sux. you should reflect yourself on your attitude. you are just too fake. and stop act cute when you are not cute at all." --- Anonymous

Someone left this comment after reading my blog.. I dunno who izzit as he or she didn't state his or her name.. Could be someone i know tat really dislike me or someone just happen to pass by.. Just wanna tell him or her tat: " Whoever she or he is, thanks for dropping by here and then to read up my posts.. Just to tell u tat, i wun let this affect me or watever stuff.. I still the Christina I wanna be.. I wun change for anyone sake.. I believe u dunno me well ba.. If u dunno, pls dun anyhow set conclusion cause is not fair to me.. Those tat really accept for who i am are those that really my true friends.. If they dun like my attitude, i dun mind.. No one is perfect.. Why be someone you are not in front of somebody? Izzit the right way? Treat someone really good when u dun like him or her.. Tat is called Fake.. The way u say it, sound like u have been putting a mask where ever u go.. Why like tat.. Isn't it tough for u? Yes.. U may say whatever things i tried will always fail eventually.. But does it matter? Though i may feel sad abt the failure but at least i tried.. Did you? U may criticise abt my attitude and the way i treat people.. How about u? Even to a stranger like me, u say these kind of words.. Izzit the right attitude? If u dare to say this kind of comment, why not leave down your name.. If u leave down your name, i may wanna consider ya opinion.. If there is misunderstanding between us.. Why not solve it.. Why do things secretly and start critising.. For god sake.. Stop being so childish.. I believe u are an adult.. Think maturely can? Oh ya.. If u think i act cute when i'm not.. Go ahead... Different people have different opinion.. Whatever i do, as long as i'm happy.. That is wat it matters.. If u really think i sux.. Tell me straight in my face.. I may still respect U.."

This few days is simply just too boring..
This Thursday last paper to go..
Do nothing but study..
Haiz..
Lucky yesterday went out with my xiao di to town..
Haha.. Finally got the book " Memoir of Geisha"
Gonna read it after my exam.. Hehe.. =)
Was fun going out with him cos he always manage to make me laugh..
Sad for him, he didn't manage to see a bag tat he like..
Catch up with him a little.. As well with ah xiang before she went for work..
Simply can't wait for exam to be over..
So i can relax a little and start going out or work..
I wanna play Pool...
I shall jio people go out once i finish my exam..
Guys.. Just wait for me.. Haha..

Artist: Kelly Clarkson
Title: Because of YOU..

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

Body is aching..
Dark rings are darkening..
I am Tired!!
For the past few days, have been studying for my exam.
Didn't have enough rest..
The worst is to fall sick during exam..
No mood to study..
Haiz..
For marco exam? I can prepare to retake next semester liao..
It Sux totally..
For BMGT exam? Erm.. I just write watever tat came into my mind..
Pass or Fail.. I really dunno liao..
Two exam down.. Left one more to go..
URGENT!! I need some rest..
My body can't take it liao..
SObz Sobz..

Erm.. At the moment, feeling a bit tired.. Haha.. Went to school early in the morning to meet Rebecca Jie to study.. Had a good chat with her during lunch time.. =P Went over to snack bar to Study.. A little warm down there at first.. But after a while.. Get use le.. Wow.. School can be really quiet during exam period.. Nice atmosphere to study.. =) Omg.... Business management really got lots of stuff to study... All theory sia.. Whew.. Manage to study a few chapters.. Lucky not at home, if not i will be slacking all the way rather then studying.. Haha.. =P

After studying for the whole afternoon, me and jie got change and went over to the tracks to have a little jog.. Oh my.. My stamina has dropped.. Sobz Sobz.. 2.4km used to be no problem for me.. But now??? Run 4 rounds and i can take it le.. Haiz.. I must start training le.. Haha.. I wanna get back my stamina..=)

Tml meeting jie again to study and a jog after tat.. Wow.. If everyday is so simple and happy.. How nice yah? Study, then jog.. Though a little stress during studying.. But during running... So fun.. Get to catch up with frenz..

Jia you to those studying for exams rite now.. All the best!!

A lot of things went through in my mind for the past few days...
Have been thinking a lot and nearly fell really badly...
In Life there is always ups and downs..
It is just part and parcel of LIFE..
Just like what 1 of my fren said..
Is just another obstacles of your life..
Once u overcome that obstacles..
U are a new person..
YESH... CHRISTINA doesn't collapse so easily..
Even if she fell, she just gonna climb up again..
She is gonna prove tat she is indeed capable..
Tat is the spirit.. Yeah..
I know where i wanna go, what i wanna be..
It is my mindset that i have to conquer..
I wun let anything or anyone stop me from reaching my goals..
I know i can do it.. N i am sure i can do it.. =)
Before i can do anything..
Is time to start studying for my exams!!
For other things..
Just let nature take its courses..
N one impt thing..
I should be contented of what i have now..
Treasure things tat is around me..
Study Hard N Play Hard!!

Suddenly realise something..
The More U expect something to happen...
The More it wun Happen..
The More U want something badly...
The More U wun get it..
Why is tat so?
Whenever i dream of sth or want sth badly..
I'm always left disappointed..
I feel even worst..
If like tat.. Why bother to dream?
Somebody just tell me what to do...

Been a long time since i last blog.
What had happened to me?
I think as usual.. In A BIG MESS..
My life isn't going well..
My worst fear has come true..
I'm no longer the Christina I used to be..
I no longer dare to dream..
I'm no longer as ambitious as i used to be..
I always known for my confident, happy go lucky and daring attitude..
But they are no longer there..
I lost all of them..
Friendship, Relationship and watever stuff..
I start to wonder do they really exist..
They do.. But at least not to me..
Heaven playing a huge joke on me..
Whenever i start believing they do exist..
It just took them away from me..
How cruel heaven can be..
I start to question myself..
What have i done wrong?
I'm unsure as well..
I'm tired.. I'm struggling..
I just need to find them all back..
Somebody just help me..
I'm LOST..