What do you Fear?
This question suddenly pop out from no where while i'm walking back home..
N I started thinking~~~
Everyone fear of something regardless hu are you, including me..
I fear of the Dark..
I fear of the loneliness..
I fear of the open sea...
I fear of the height...
Coming to think about it..
I fear of DEATH..
Reading articles on people dying through accidents..
(Drowning while canoe capsize, bike accident, hit by fallen trees, small boy got crash by a van)
I can't deny that Human Life is fragile..
What can we do? Sad to say.. We can do nothing about it..
You will never know when is your turn..
Not being pessimistic but that is reality..
So.. Are you afraid to Die?

I wanted to make my life as happening as possible..
So at least, when i look back when i'm dead..
I dun regret...
So much wanted to do all the impossible stuff that i'm afraid of..
BUT i failed to conquer my fear... I kept telling myself that i'll be fine..
However, I couldn't bring myself to do it..
I'm still afraid of the cruel open sea even though i love to kayak..
Contridicting? I believe so..
ot able to swim in that open sea..
The feeling of being insecure..
I just can't endure....
I gave up in the end...
I hate myself!

Where have ya been? Are u doing good?
You know who u are..
Do you know that I onli get to know what have ya been doing through your blog?
U are busy.. Really Busy...
Busy till i do not dare to call or sms u..
Or should I say..
I'm afriad of the those short replies u given me..
U once told me not to work tat hard..
What about you?
I'm worried and I knew that you will nv tell me..
Are we still as close as we used to?
Aren't we gonna do something about it?
Or are we gonna leave it the way it is now..
Sister.. I need you...
Btw.. Congrats that you manage to get into NTU..
N please.. Stop working so hard...
U need a break...

Shall say something that cheer me up a little.. Will be working at Suntec during the weekends of school term break for a event on Kampong Games for kidz.. No idea what's I'm gonna do there till briefing.. Hope I'm able to see lots of cute children.. Hehe..

For now on.. Common Test just round the corner.. Jia you to all my dear friends..

After the race looking messy...

Making fun of Kor...

Starting Point...
The Fast Runners~~

The Strong Paddlers...

Team 902!!!

Hehe.. Me~~~

Team OB!!

I'm still the shortest.. Haiz.

The bears Family in action again...

Celebrate ah xiang birthday with the rest of the 5 girls at Liquid Kitchen..
Nice place for chit chatting session..
The celebration was okie..
Catch up with the girls a little..
Started drinking..
Hoping that i will be drunk and too tired to think of anything..
Just wanna get a good sleep...
But it failed..

Went running with Ting and Rebz Jie today..
Hehe..
Had a great time talking to Ting..
Share lots of stuff with her while waiting for Rebz to arrive..
Thanks for the listening ears..
We promise to learn swimming before OB taiwan..
Yesh!! Haha.. We shall do it together..
Had a good run as it is always nice to sweat it out after a tired week..
I Need to slim down~~~
Went to atrium.. SHaring session again..
Hehe.. =)Great day..


Was really shock and embrassed when i Noe u actually read my blog..
Stood that speechless, staring at the screen..
Thanks for everything as i couldn't find any other words to express myself..
U are really a good fren to have and to treasure.. =)
A quote for u: "Don't let the odds keep u from pursuing what you know you were meant to do."
Well.. I got very good pair of listening ears..
Since ya always there when i'm down..
Do let me have the chance to return the favor. =)
Jia you and all the best, my good fren.. =)


Finally talked it out on the phone..
Pouring everything out in my heart..
U understand and told me urs..
N Now both of us know what's went wrong..
We can Live happily ever after.. hehe..
1 more day before we can watch pirates and have nice pizza..
13 days to our one year anniversary..
16 more days before our movie marathon..
N few more months before our genting trip..
Looking forward.. =)
Dear.. I Love You.. =) Muackz..

Celebrate Ah xiang birthday on Thursday..
Had a great day with her as well as Eugene Daddy..
Got her a small little cake, a bouquet of roses, a pair of earrings which i was tempted to get myself a similar pair and a cute bdae card..
Went over to Suki Sushi to had dinner..
Daddy's treat.. haha
Took lots of photos and the three of us had such a great time talking..
Took some neoprints.. Photo taking again..
Haha.. It so much fun hanging out with good frenz...
More to come!!! =) I promise ah xiang.. =P
Wednesday gonna celebrate ah xiang bdae again with the rest of the girls..
Eating time~~~ Gonnna be fat~~~

Are you afraid of me?
You stood far away from me when I wanna talk to u..
The reply are short even u were to give me an answer..
Are u afraid that people might mistaken or what other reason do u have?
It is so different when i talk to u face to face compare to msn..
Izzit you or me?
It hurts.. It hurts not able to talk to you, my good fren..


I started wondering what i really want..
Are you the right guy for me?
I hear u saying you miss me and love me lots of time..
However, whenever I need you most, you wasn't there..
Do u really understand what i really want?
I Love you.. But izzit enough?
I put u in the first place in my heart..
Do you?
Having you and not having you doesn't seem a difference...

Lots of things running through my mind..
But no words were written down..
So much things that i wanted to tell u..
But i held back..
I heard u yawning and ask u to go rest..
U ask do I mind?
Seriously.. I do mind..
Waited one day for your call..
But these were the words u tell me..
I told myself nt to blame you as u r busy with FYP.
But..
I need someone to talk to...
I got so much to share with u..
I really need a warm hug before i collapse..
I really need you...


I saw u across the road..
However, i didn't dare to call or wave to u..
SO much wanted to approach u to tell u how's my day...
But i couldn't..
I logged in every nite praying hard u will be online..
But i'm always left disappointed..
Even u were online, nth came out on the screen..
I wanna tell u everything..
But.. I did not know where to start..
I'm confused..
I dun wanna depend on you.. I can't...

Came back from I-camp totally drained..
The games, amazing race, the retro Nite..
They were awesome and the participants love it.
But did I really enjoy myself?
I think No.
Running this camp as a total new position.
Not as participants and programme co-ordinator.
But as a helper and Supervising PC.
Looking at the camp as a 3rd Party..
It was boring indeed..
I wun say i'm bored through out..
But lucky there is the amazing race.
Run around with the group "Vintage"
From eating ice-cream, slacking around, sleeping in the bus, perspiring, drench in the rain and to stuck in the lift for 50 mins and being rescued by a uncle.
It was a great experience afterall.

I hate myself..
For being the bad person always..
For the mouth I had..
For saying the wrong words at the wrong time..
For that attitude I had..
I just simply hate myself..

Had a Great day today!
Or should i say.. The later part of the day? Haha..
Went out with Ah Jie and Mother after those boring tax lecture and CSP tutorial..
Somehow to celebrate Mother's belated birthday and Mother's Day..
Feeling guily of not buying anything for her.. =P
Went Tanglin Mall Spageddies for Early Dinner..
Nice calamari, garlic bread, peperoni bread and crayfish Tend.
Yummy~~
Tummy was actually showing very clearly after finishing the desert at the end..
Choc Brownie and Tiramisu... Whoo.... =)

Neo Print Time!!
Taking lots of photos with the machine and Mother's camera..
Lots of Nice photos..
Shall post it up once i got hold of it..
Hehe..

Had a wonderful and happy Day..
More to come yah?

Been really nice to attend almost all lectures and tutorials..
Skip one or two here and there.. Hehe.. =)
Just as usual - study, work and OB..

Monday - School end at 3 and go work if possible at 5 till 10pm.
Tuesday - School end at 5 (Meet frenz for some catch up session? or back home)
Wednesday - School end at 5 and go for meeting after tat.
Thursday - School end at 5 again. (Home? Dinner?)
Friday - Two hours lesson and then OB training.

Haha.. Basically only Tuesday and Thursday free..
Trying my very best to ask friends out for dinner but.. haiz... =(

Dear busy and always tired after doing FYP for whole day..
So seldom meet up during weekdays.. =(
N duration of phone call is getting shorter as he is always tired.. =(
After his FYP is attachment.. Oh no!!
When can i ever go Genting with Him??
I'm still waiting~~~

I-Camp coming this weekend.. Looking forward to it..
It gonna be really FUN..
Way to go 14th Comm!