Am i pushing myself too hard? Am i killing myself slowly as times goes by? Why am i working like shit just to do the things i want? Why is life so unfair? Why can't things just be easier for me? Why do i have to go through all these? All these questions left unanswered. N i noe i wun get any answers to all these questions..

To most people out there.. I've been always a strong gal.. A gal that take and let go of things easily. A gal that is always happy go lucky, crapping and joking around.. But is tat the real me? Am i really happy? Even if i'm not, what can i do? I'm tired of all the smiles i've worn.. I try to optimistic. I keep telling myself: " Christina, everything gonna be fine.. Tomorrow will be a better day.." Did things go smoothly for me? The answer was NO.. More and more obstacles seems to keep coming up my way.. I just dun understand why, while other 17 years old gals are busy dressing themselves, shopping, go for movies go clubbing, happy dating with bf.. I'm down here working part time jobs and encouraging myself tat life is not sux.. Working damn hard to fulfill my dreams to learn piano and getting the things i really want for a long time. While some people out there just take things for granted. Life is so unfair..

Maybe i look too highly upon myself. Keeping myself so busy, interested in every single thing and wanna learn them. But do i have the ability to do tat? Am i capable of being ambition.. At first i'm confident to tell u.. I am.. But now? Dis confident of mine is fading as times goes by.. Someone just tell me wat to do..

I no longer have faith in friendship and relationship.. I'm lost.. Every failed friendship and relationship i went through make me worn out.. I put in my heart and in end, wat i get? Betrays, take advantage of me by thinking tat whenever they need help, i'll be there.. My fault or theirs? What have i done wrong? If u noe, please tell me.. I'm sick of guessing... Life is complicated..

WHO AM I???